“He redeemed my soul from going down to the pit, and I shall live to enjoy the light. God does all these things to a man – twice, even three times – to turn back his soul from the pit, that the light of life may shine on him.” (Job 33:28-30 NIV)
In September 2016 I became a Christian. I found Jesus sitting cross-legged, reading a book, at the bottom of the pit of despair I had found myself in. It was a wonderful moment, spiritually. Since then, my journey of discipleship has been nowhere near plain sailing! But, I keep discovering more of Jesus and Abba and their love. In fact, their love is more pronounced whenever I find myself in a pit.
In May 2017, I found myself in a pit of despair and I drew this:
I find it really helpful to create visual reminders of things, including things that I discover in my walk with the LORD. I discovered that Jesus is the way out of the pit. He faithfully helps me out, but it takes trust, courage, vulnerability, faith, perseverance and determination; just as if I were climbing up the structure in my drawing.
During my time in a psychiatric ward in the last few weeks, I discovered that I can (and want to) lean on Abba at other times. Not only during times of crisis. This has been revolutionary for me. It’s become the most valuable tool in my recovery. I practice little and often. I practice when I’m happy, sad, anxious, etc. I reckon He appreciates it too.
So, when I read these verses, I was struck by how relevant it is to my own experience. It gave me hope. I was comforted by them and I soaked them up, absorbing them into my heart and mind.
(NB: This post is for Thursday 1st February)