I have finally caught up!
When I woke up, I was feeling lower than I have for several days. I was able to identify what was going on, so that I could work on myself. I knew that I was feeling anxious about seeing everyone at church for the first time since going into hospital. I’d also had several bad dreams so I woke up with a racing heart and unpleasant images fresh in my mind. I was also grieving for a couple of things. And, I had a sore throat.
For the first time in a couple of weeks I felt tempted to give up, although I thankfully didn’t act on that temptation.
I opened my bible at Psalm 46 and immediately started praising Abba.
This is what it says:
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though it’s waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought on the earth. He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire. Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.
I have put the parts that comforted me in bold. It gave me strength and courage to face the day, and lean in for a cuddle with Abba.