This is my second, and final, blog for today.
It has been a tough few days but I’ve managed to not slip into crisis of wanting to (or acting on) self-harm, run away, or attempt suicide. Praise God! Although there were times when I felt like giving up, felt overwhelmed, and felt like distancing myself from a few people for a few week – mainly because I was struggling with some powerful negative emotions. However, I have managed to find some helpful and healthy ways of coping and facing these things, which has given me hope that I am starting to get better.
Having read Isaiah 30:15, I then turned a couple of pages and read Isaiah 33. There was one verse that really caught my attention. Verse 2 says, ‘O LORD, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in times of distress.’
I like this verse for two reasons. 1. It mentions the LORD – Abba in particular perhaps – being our strength in the morning. I notice a big difference to my day if I actually do have my morning coffee with Abba. I think it does give me strength to face the day. 2. Salvation in times of distress. I sometimes think that distress is always going to be a big part of my personality. It is one of the biggest symptoms that I struggle with of my mix of psychological issues, including EUPD. However, I am learning and practicing more techniques including time with Abba. I also can see glimpses of getting better. For that I’m very thankful to Abba, Jesus, Spirit primarily, but also my support network.