This morning, for the first time in nearly two weeks, I was feeling rather deflated. I consider that to be good going! However, the feelings I was experiencing were rather uncomfortable for me and I was struggling to find the enthusiasm to even get out of bed. One of the gifts that the Spirit has instilled in me is that of determination. So, even when feeling low, discouraged, distressed, etc. I’m still looking for something, anything, that will snap me out of the emotional state I’m in.
This morning that came to me by way of a Bible verse on a friends timeline on Facebook. It couldn’t have been more timely or more for me. It was Psalm 18:28, which holds special meaning to me. So I opened my Bible and flicked to Psalm 18 and read the whole chapter. I found a lot of it comforting and helpful, but these verses spoke to me more than the others:
You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him. For who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. (Psalm 18:28-32 NIV)
I then did some self-help techniques, that I’m teaching myself, for my EUPD (A.K.A BPD) and PTSD. After that I felt much better and the fog of distressing emotions lifted.
The LORD definitely shone brightly into my darkness and gave me the strength to continue with my recovery and get on with life. Thank you Abba-Jesus-Spirit; and friends who are obedient to sharing encouragement and scripture on Facebook!