I’m rather fed up with May now. My moodscope score has been stuck on 0% for most of the month. I’ve been really struggling with my mental health this month. The only sense of achievement has been getting the company I work for GDPR compliant and helping others work towards their own GDPR compliance.
I have my youngest off school today – she has an inset day. The positive side is that she’s helpful and she has requested to listen to worship music. It’s a joy to watch her dance around and sing along to her favourite worship songs. But yet these feelings of worthlessness and despair (among other emotions) linger in my core; seeping their way through every cell in my body, mind, and spirit.
While my daughter was caught up in her own praise, I stopped housework and picked up my dusty Bible. I turned to Psalm 70. Surely I’m not the only one who relates so deeply to David’s words, am I?
5 short verses spoke very deeply to me. David writes, “Hasten, O God, to save me; O LORD, come quickly to help me, May those who seek my life be put to shame and confusion; may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace. May those who say to me, ‘Aha! Aha!’ turn back because of their shame. But May all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation always say, ‘let God be exalted!’ Yet I am poor and needy; come quickly to me, O God. You are my help and my deliverer; O LORD, do not delay.” (Psalm 70 NIV)
Sometimes the only person out to get me is me. But today I’m asking for His help to keep going and keep getting better. Today I seem to have a glimmer of determination to get better. Prayers and hugs welcome.