Perhaps one of the most familiar bible verses about trust is, ‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.‘ (Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV)
Last week I had an extraordinary experience of the LORD’s grace and healing. It seemed to be a miracle.
I was in despair. My mental health was terrible. I was suffering badly with severe symptoms of BPD and PTSD. I was restless and crying with an intensity that felt as though I was going to die from the emotional pain I was in. Indeed I felt as though death was the only way out of the emotional pain I was in. On top of everything else I was trying my best to fight strong suicidal ideation. It’s not easy to speak about such things, because of the stigma attached. But, I risk it to encourage you with the love and faithfulness of the LORD.
At 4am, Monday 23rd July, it became apparent to me and Nick (my husband) that there was spiritual warfare going on within me. Nick was awakened and was twitching with interceding prayer for me. I was praying myself too. I had a new prayer in my heart. I cried out for Jesus to rescue me. I cried out to Him for help. I knew in that moment that I not only needed Him but I wanted Him. I let Him in to the deep parts of my mind and emotions, so that He could restore me and fix me. He was very gracious and came in to heal and rescue me. It took a while in the night, but that war against the devil’s schemes was WON. Jesus has the victory. He won on the cross and His win seeped through time to rescue, save, and heal me approximately two thousand years later. Hallelujah!!
Having let Jesus in to this particular deep place took a lot of trust. I’ve been frightened of it for as long as I can remember. It’s only been within the last month that I’ve let other humans know about this part of my mind and emotions! I had a fear that if I let Jesus in to fix the way my brain and emotions worked I would loose my memories and emotions. But, He knows what He’s doing – He’s not only my maker, but my author and editor (Hebrews 12:2). Trusting Him definitely paid off, in a way that I couldn’t have imagined.
Here are some more verses about trust, to further encourage you to trust in Him and trust Him:
Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.
The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.
Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Do not put your trust in princes, in human beings, who cannot save.
Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.”
He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, ‘I am the Son of God.’”