I don’t often share a whole chapter of the Bible in my writing, but today I’m going to make an exception.
I’m also going to try something different. I going to type my own experiences into this Psalm. This story is of the grace, love, restoration and healing that Abba has done in my life, according to His merciful compassion on me – His precious child.
So, without further ado, here is some of my story (my additions in blue):
I love the Lord (yes), for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Although this has been true and a regular occurrence in my life, it was particularly pronounced on Monday 23rd July. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. Trust has built up enough that I do actually turn to Him first now. I’m more independent now – well on other human beings at least. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came over me; I was overcome by distress and sorrow. This has – until July 23rd – been true of my experience for as long as I can remember. I have felt consumed by suicidal ideation for as long as I can remember. I have struggled with overwhelming negative thoughts and emotions. Then I called on the name of the Lord:“Lord, save me!” The Lord is gracious and righteous;our God is full of compassion.The Lord protects the unwary;when I was brought low, he saved me. This was my experience on Monday 23rd July, 4am.
Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. Amen! I have been much more relaxed since He healed and rescued me. For you, Lord, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord in the land of the living. Amen! I trusted in the Lord when I said, “I am greatly afflicted” Amen!; in my alarm I said,“Everyone is a liar.” What shall I return to the Lord for all his goodness to me? I will lift up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the Lord. I will fulfill my vows to the Lord in the presence of all his people. I intend to get baptised, and am working towards this. Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants. Truly I am your servant, Lord; I serve you just as my mother did; you have freed me from my chains. Amen! I will sacrifice a thank offering to you and call on the name of the Lord. I will fulfill my vows to the Lord in the presence of all his people, in the courts of the house of the Lord—in your midst, Jerusalem. I will get baptised instead. Praise the Lord. Amen! (Psalm 116 NIV)
Although brief, it gives you a glimpse into the wonderful love of Abba-Jesus-Spirit, that He has demonstrated to me, and is waiting to work with you too.