Ages ago, during a crisis, I prayed that Abba-Jesus-Spirit heal my heart and renew my mind. I was desperate. I needed Him to come into my heart and mind and start the process of healing me.
He has been faithful and healed a lot already, but it still becomes obvious -especially when I slip back into crisis – that I need a lot more healing to happen. I’m struggling with patience; I just want to be better already! Not only for myself but for the sake of everyone else. I hate how my disorders affect everyone around me – I feel guilty and ashamed about it.
Last evening I went to my favourite place in the world – Yeldall Manor. It was their quarterly Celebration Service. It was awesome. I felt filled to overflowing with the Holy Spirit. I received more healing. I was encouraged and blessed by the worship and every word spoken before, during and after the service. I was blessed with spending time with one of the ex-residents whom has become one of my closest friends.
As soon as the Bible reading for the service was read, I knew I was going to write a blog post about it.
The Bible reading was, ‘His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these He has given us His very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. For if you posses these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our LORD Jesus Christ.‘ (2 Peter 1:3-8 NIV)
It seemed to me that these are the qualities that our LORD might use to heal the parts of me that are disordered. These qualities might be used to heal my heart and renew my mind. But, even if these qualities don’t bring any healing they will surely grow me and form me into who He says I am and more into His likeness. For that I am thankful. In Him I trust.
I will continue to persevere with my part; listening for the next step of obedience. I will continue to wait on Him for Hin next act of gracious healing and renewing as He works on me – His unfinished masterpiece.
I pray for healing and renewing for all I know too – for we all have broken parts; physically, spirituality, mentally, or emotionally. In particular I’m praying a blessing on all staff, volunteers, supporters and men associated with Yeldall Manor – the best place in the world (or at least my favourite place in the world).