It seems to me, or rather I have just discovered – in a typical light-bulb moment – that if your ‘theology’ is causing harm or pain then a new theology is needed.
That moment has come for me over the past several days. Shifts in my core belief have a habit of becoming solidified through crises – I’m hoping that that won’t happen this time, because my crises are usually very destructive.
I’ve noticed, through bringing my heart before the light of Jesus, that I’ve held a core belief for a very long time. That core belief could either be described as ‘Karma’ – “refers to the spiritual principle of cause and effect where intent and actions of an individual (cause) influence the future of that individual (effect). Good intent and good deeds contribute to good karma and future happiness, while bad intent and bad deeds contribute to bad karma and future suffering“. (-https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karma) AND / OR ‘Retribution Theology’ – “Retribution theology is basically the idea that you get what you deserve. God sees to it that the good people get good things in life, and the bad people get bad things. God punishes people in this world in direct response to their actions. Retribution theology says, for example, if you get cancer, it’s a sign that God is punishing you for something bad you’ve done. If your business prospers, it’s a sign that God is pleased with you. Retribution theology is thus an overly simplistic interpretation of life events that makes assumptions about God’s intentions“. (- https://www.gotquestions.org/retribution-theology.html)
This realisation has been helpful in identifying what I’ve been struggling with and why. It’s also helpful for me to have an idea of what I’m laying down in order that I pick up ‘hyper-abundant grace’ and ‘agape love’. I’m not a stranger to having to let go of my core beliefs. Abba has been breaking me free of them one by one over the past 3 years. Despite knowing that it’s His best I still wrestle with Him over the letting go. I’m getting quicker at being obedient to Him though. This time it’s only taken from Thursday last week, until today! I’m quite impressed with that. Also, unlike other occasions, I have managed to resist the temptation to cut myself or take an overdose (or some other form of harmful and destructive behaviour). Praise the LORD!
So, as I seek to allow Jesus to adjust my vision to a healthier, and more accurate, core belief of grace and love I’d value your prayers and support.