Why no sleep?

I hope this post isn’t too boring,  if it is please feel free to use it as a way of sending yourself to sleep!

I’m used to having a bad night. My mental health disorders of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and other associated things, make it difficult for me to have a peaceful nights sleep. Bad dreams and nightmares are a common occurrence, or I lay awake with crippling anxiety or distress.

Sleep has been a problem for me for as long as I can remember- either too much, or too little.

The saying that I find sums me up is: “I’m not an early bird or a night owl, I’m some sort of permanently exhausted pigeon!”

Last night, however, was different.  I wasn’t anxious, I didn’t have bad dreams. I just couldn’t sleep!

Why is it that when you know you have to get up early, and you’ve done all of the right things – having an early night, etc. –  you still can’t sleep?!? It wasn’t just me, my husband couldn’t sleep much either!

But, anyway. I can’t figure it out. Perhaps it doesn’t matter,  but I’m always one to question things.

One thing I did remember this morning was a Bible verse, that my pastor keeps sending me: ‘I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety’. (Psalm 4:8 NIV)

I can’t quite reconcile this with my own experience,  but then I’ve never claimed this truth when I’ve struggled to sleep, for whatever reason.  Perhaps I’ll try clinging to Hin and His truth the next time I’m having a bad night.

© Hannah Kirk 2019


2 thoughts on “Why no sleep?

  1. Love the pigeon quote- this is me! My PTSD means that I don’t/ can’t/ won’t sleep which then makes the other symptoms worse and it becomes a vicious circle. I find it’s worse when I’m out of routine so the Christmas break has been a bit of a nightmare. Can’t wait to get back to work!

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