When I started this blog (see: What’s the point?) I intended to use it as a way of documenting my times with Abba (this word means 'daddy' which is the term I choose to use for my Father in Heaven - whom others might refer to as simply God or Father God). Over time I've also… Continue reading Hope
September is my least favourite month of the year - every year. It's the one month of the year that I wish I could sleep through. Today marks the one year anniversary since the last time I tried to commit suicide. It's also the 6 month anniversary since the last time I cut myself and… Continue reading Conflicted Anniversaries
I've had a tough week, for a variety of reasons. Despite my positive last post I've been sorely tempted to give up with my recovery. I even spent a few days last week feeling suicidal again. I didn't act on it and rested instead - seeking appropriate support and taking my 'emergency' medication. I managed… Continue reading Just When I was About To Give Up!
Part of my recovery involves me learning how to manage, and cope with, the knocks of life. Until recently I was not equipped for even the slightest of knocks. Over the past few years I've developed a tool kit to enable me to grow my resilience and resistance in challenging or emotionally charged circumstances. The… Continue reading Weebles Wobble But They Don’t Fall Down!
I'm learning so much about myself at the moment - during a time of self-help, self-discovery, and self-taught recovery. I'm learning about why I respond and react in certain ways, and how I can recover from my disorders. This journey started in 2013, but intensified in 2015, and has started to plateau into a slightly… Continue reading Parts
On Saturday 6th July I had my head shaved! I wasn't crazy, I did it to raise money, and awareness, for Yeldall Manor - a Christian drug and alcohol rehabilitation centre for men, near Reading. (You can find out more details, and sponsor me here: https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/hannah-kirk-head-shave) Having my head shaved was a drastic change, but… Continue reading A Drastic Change
On Facebook I look at my 'memories' every day. I love to be reminded of what happened in previous years, and how far I've come in my recovery from mental health disorders (and how far I've got to go!). This isn't always good because it reminds me of the bad stuff that has happened too… Continue reading Memories
This morning I wrote a blog about my experience of dissociation. As a result I've gained some further insight, which I'd like to share with you. Firstly, I thought I'd clarify that although on paper it reads to be similar to 'day dreaming' or where ones mind wanders, it's almost completely different to that. I'll… Continue reading Dissociation Part 2
As I sit at work, in tears, I've decided I'd like to try to explain something to you. I fear doing so because of the stigma associated with it, but I feel the need to be brave - if nothing else I could do with some support, love, and indeed prayers. Anyone who has followed… Continue reading Dissociation
I've had a lot of time to think the past few days... I've been resting with a trapped nerve in my neck/shoulder - it's been agony! Thankfully sorted out by a physiotherapist today. As I've been resting I've been thinking about various aspects of my faith. These areas have mainly been around love, sexuality, inclusion… Continue reading Pondering