When I started this blog (see: What’s the point?) I intended to use it as a way of documenting my times with Abba (this word means 'daddy' which is the term I choose to use for my Father in Heaven - whom others might refer to as simply God or Father God). Over time I've also… Continue reading Hope
September is my least favourite month of the year - every year. It's the one month of the year that I wish I could sleep through. Today marks the one year anniversary since the last time I tried to commit suicide. It's also the 6 month anniversary since the last time I cut myself and… Continue reading Conflicted Anniversaries
I've had a tough week, for a variety of reasons. Despite my positive last post I've been sorely tempted to give up with my recovery. I even spent a few days last week feeling suicidal again. I didn't act on it and rested instead - seeking appropriate support and taking my 'emergency' medication. I managed… Continue reading Just When I was About To Give Up!
Part of my recovery involves me learning how to manage, and cope with, the knocks of life. Until recently I was not equipped for even the slightest of knocks. Over the past few years I've developed a tool kit to enable me to grow my resilience and resistance in challenging or emotionally charged circumstances. The… Continue reading Weebles Wobble But They Don’t Fall Down!
This morning I wrote a blog about my experience of dissociation. As a result I've gained some further insight, which I'd like to share with you. Firstly, I thought I'd clarify that although on paper it reads to be similar to 'day dreaming' or where ones mind wanders, it's almost completely different to that. I'll… Continue reading Dissociation Part 2
As I sit at work, in tears, I've decided I'd like to try to explain something to you. I fear doing so because of the stigma associated with it, but I feel the need to be brave - if nothing else I could do with some support, love, and indeed prayers. Anyone who has followed… Continue reading Dissociation
Hi! It's been a long time. Sorry about that. Life just keeps getting in the way. I've thought about writing for a long time, but have not got round to it. Business has picked up for me at Hannah Kirk Photographer. I've also been doing several courses recently. Also, I've had my part-time job and… Continue reading Life Keeps Getting In The Way…
Today is the first day of Lent. I'm not giving anything up, or at least not in the usual way. My friend, Kat, has written a book called The Art of Surrender, and I'm going to read it during lent, and possibly for a few days after. Surrender feels like giving something up. It's interesting… Continue reading The Art of Surrender – Day 1
As far as Psalms go, this one is not too long. At 40 verses, though, it took me several minutes to read. I'll insert the Psalm here; before writing about it further: Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong; 2 for like the grass they will soon… Continue reading Psalm 37
I've missed writing, but I've struggled to get back into it. My mental health hasn't been great recently, but, having said that I've actually taken some positive steps in my recovery. Of course, if I stop to look back on the past month, it's been filled with lots of blessings. One of the biggest blessings… Continue reading I’m Back!