When I started this blog (see: What’s the point?) I intended to use it as a way of documenting my times with Abba (this word means 'daddy' which is the term I choose to use for my Father in Heaven - whom others might refer to as simply God or Father God). Over time I've also… Continue reading Hope
Part of my recovery involves me learning how to manage, and cope with, the knocks of life. Until recently I was not equipped for even the slightest of knocks. Over the past few years I've developed a tool kit to enable me to grow my resilience and resistance in challenging or emotionally charged circumstances. The… Continue reading Weebles Wobble But They Don’t Fall Down!
It's difficult to distinguish between what is the real, 'created' me and what is the 'constructed' me - or as Brennan Manning describes, 'the IMPOSTOR'. I think I struggle with this because at the moment I see me as BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)/EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) Hannah. This 'me' also has other psychological issues… Continue reading The Real Me
So, this is what determination looks like. It's the strength it takes to get out of bed when your whole body is screaming at you to give up. It's choosing to do the things on your list of 'healthy' things for recovery, when you really don't care or see the point. It's taking PRN medication… Continue reading Determination
This is my second, and final, blog for today. It has been a tough few days but I've managed to not slip into crisis of wanting to (or acting on) self-harm, run away, or attempt suicide. Praise God! Although there were times when I felt like giving up, felt overwhelmed, and felt like distancing myself… Continue reading Distress and Help
Today, I had to go back to hospital for an assessment, following the six day leave that I have completed. The assessment, although fairly overwhelming, went well. They concluded that I was ready to be taken off section, and they have discharged me from hospital. I'm now in the care of the community mental health… Continue reading Thank you